TL DR; Pretty much the title ^So I graduated from a video games design degree a few years back. I'm living in the UK and for the past year and a half I've been trying to figure out what to pursue in my life, going back and forth with what I think the right idea may be, its gotten pretty depressing to be completely honest as I feel like I've gotten no-where, right back to where I started and now I'm procrastinating more than ever since I just have no clear direction of what to work towards. In university we were trained and taught as 3D Artists for the games industry as it was a bachelor of arts course. Things started off relatively good and I enjoyed the company of the other people on the degree and what we were talking about daily but the further in the course I got, the more tedious I started to find things. I am very passionate about games and I enjoy Art as a medium and still draw even now from time to time but the work in the course started to get tedious for me, I tried to learn a little programming on the side also to see if that was more suitable for myself but I didnt really find much appeal from the beginner online courses I went through. So I stumbled through my degree and played more video games and spent alot of time out with friends instead of working on my actual uni projects. I was younger, more immature and feel I was using it as escapism more than anything because of struggling to stay motivated with the actual work. So uni finished, I scrapped a pass, which I wasn't happy with. We weren't really prepped for making portfolio's through the degree and as such I had to just pick up a job. After 8 months of nothing I got a job at a broadband company fixing internet and computers over the phone. Decent pay and my boss was great, though i knew i didnt want to stick it out speaking to customers on the phone all day for a long term job. Fast forward a year, my boss had mentioned me to other staff and helped me to get a graphic design project with some others to build on my cv. I enjoyed it and work was more interesting going into everyday and although I had experience in things like photoshop it was my first attempt at doing this sortve thing outside of uni. Work eventually dried up and it was time to go back on the phone. I just couldnt do it anymore and quit soon after - on my last day my boss toke me outside and had a chat with me before saying farewell, kind enough of him to say, he told me he thought I had potential and knew I wouldnt be content staying at that job too long. Told me to not give up and keep going. Amazing to have a boss like that compared to the stereotypical assholes so many of us get usually. So I left and decided y'know what.. I'm a little older now, lets give 3D modelling another try, I'm still passionate about games and art in the film and games industry, so i started teaching myself again, mostly through digital tutors. I'm better than I was before but still not industry level but guess what.. I'm burnt out again and I hate that its happened but I've stopped feeling motivated to do the work, its always been a push and surely to really pursue something you love its not suppose to be a push to do it. Its suppose to be something you'd do in your free time anyway, This made me question things.I thought about perhaps self teaching myself as a graphic designer, its close enough to what I was doing before that i know I could get myself to a high quality standard if motivated enough but I did a week or two of it and still felt undecided. I started thinking about other things I could do, "I like animals so maybe something to do with helping them, maybe psychology, I enjoy storytelling too hmm.... or I could start working towards producing graphic novels or video editing or maybe just look back into graphic design..." This is literally the stuff thats running through my mind on a daily basis at the moment. Its depressing cos I have no idea still and ideas completley outside of anything I've done so far are just that - ideas that I have absolutely no experience in, things like that would require me to save up a lot of cash also and pay for a new degree or something similar and thats daunting in itself. This would be fine if I was sure on one of these goals but I'm just not at the moment and that's all I feel I need, a clear direction of where to go. So here I am at 11pm in my flat without a job right now struggling for cash 3 years after graduating my degree typing on here, because im pretty much lost.. any help would be greatly appreciated. Sorry for the wall of text, I just felt I needed to add context to my plea for advice.
